This Quarantine Life

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  

2 Corinthians 12:9

Here we are in week *who knows* of quarantine?   I hear many people say they don’t even know what day it is anymore.  I always know what day it is.  With chemo every week I count down the days to the next chemo treatment.   I currently get Carboplatin and Taxol.  I was hopeful that somehow these new drugs would not feel so much like chemo and allow me to feel like myself.  That has not been the case.   I have one day where I can hardly get out of bed and sleep most of the day.  Then the other days I am very tired and nauseous in the morning.  My fatigue last until mid-afternoon.  So, by dinner most evenings I am feeling close to myself.  When I am lying in bed for part of the day, I have time to think, sleep, and pray.   I try to remind myself that God’s power is made perfect in my weakness.

I think we are all feeling a little weak or at least deflated with no pools or fun travel this weekend.  Once again, as Memorial Day weekend is here, I find myself missing life as it was in the past.  Every year was the same thing: we would spend this weekend traveling to see my in-laws about 2 ½ hours away.  We would pull the kids out of school early and try to beat the traffic.  We’d drop the kids off, and Chris and I would head out to the outlets to do some shopping and then go out to dinner.   Chris’ brother and his 3 kids would also come.  The weekend was always filled with lots of laughter, games, pool time and just relaxing.  It is always a nice get away that revives us so we can make it until the end of the school year. 

This year there is no making it to the end of the school year.  The kids do have online classes for a few more weeks.   Honestly that gives them something to do so they actually look forward to having school.  We are missing many things this spring and we are just trying to make the most of it.  This week we celebrated the 8^thgrade dance.  Here is a short video of the fun the boys had with glow sticks.  I hope it brings a smile to your face.  We had many laughs watching them dance with glow sticks taped to their clothes.  

I cannot even begin to thank everyone for all the cards, dinners, desserts, and gift I continue to receive.  They are such an encouragement to me and always seem to arrive at the perfect time when I need a boost.  Thank you for your friendship too.  So much of what I read talks about the importance of community and letting people help during cancer treatments.  This is a hard time to feel like you have a community to help, but knowing so many are praying and receiving these acts of kindness reminds me I am not going through this alone.  I wish things were different and I could give all of you great friends a hug when you stop by.  One day we will all be able to get together again.  

On a separate note – does anyone miss shopping?  I am getting really tired of shopping online.  

Just wanted to let you all know how things are going here.  Hope you and your family are doing well and had an enjoyable weekend.  Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.  

Here are a few prayer requests.

Chemo round #3 was yesterday – that that it will continue to kill the cancer cells in my breast and lymph nodes.  That I will have energy to spend time with my family and help Chris take care of the day to day of running a household (he is doing a great job by the way).